ABOUT?

rainbow div
NAME:
Saint / Brynn / Q / Talbot
also Grimes, Lily, Spy, or whatever silly user I have.
PRONOUNS:
none/null/name only
he/him ⋆ q/q ⋆ qi/qim ⋆ haze/ ⋆ spy/spies ⋆ star/s ⋆ pale/s
I highly prefer you refer to me with neos or my names only.
I do not use they/them.
AGE:
formerly 8 (presently 22)


BLM. ACAB. FREE PALESTINE.

No DNI, I block liberally and freely. Don't be a freak and you're fine.
Please do not speak to me if you are a TIRF/baeddel, or unironically transmisandrist. I do not give a damn about pettyarguments over gay flags and labels; as long as you don't hurt others or children, I literally don't care what you identify with.
normal ship
I hate "consang" and incest too.

If you annoy me, I will probably block you. It's not always a personal affront, I just currate my internet experience, and so should you. Not everything I disagree with is listed here, obviously. Use your brain. If you want to assume I'm a woke DEI tranny then by all means, block me, DNI, and have a good day.

ame delusional

Semi-ranked in order of particular hyperfixation at the moment, but does not indicate how much long-term autism has been funnelled into them.
  • GAMES:
  • Cookie Run Kingdom
  • Dead by Daylight
  • Honkai: Starrail
  • Resident Evil
  • Fortnite
  • Team Fortress 2
  • Terraria
  • Cube Escape & Rusty Lake
  • Disco Elysium
  • Dislyte
  • FAITH
  • Project Zomboid
  • Roblox
  • Silent Hill
  • Starbound
  • Among Us
  • Bee Swarm Simulator
  • Blade and Soul
  • Dress to Impress
  • Everskies
  • Fatal Frame
  • Grounded
  • Minecraft
  • Needy Streamer Overload
  • Ponytown
  • Psychonauts
  • Roblox badge collectors/find-thes
  • Saya no Uta
  • Stardew Valley
  • The Division
  • The Forest
  • Valorant
  • Wynncraft
  • COMFORT CHARACTERS:
  • I really care about them a lot!!
  • Shadow Milk Cookie | CRK
  • Golden Cheese Cookie | CRK
  • Pure Vanilla Cookie | CRK
  • Clara & Svarog | HSR
  • Custard Cookie III | CRK
  • Kafka | HSR
  • Sable Ward | DbD
  • TV/MOVIE:
  • Jeopardy!
  • Babylon 5
  • Star Trek
  • Breaking Bad
  • Emesis Blue
  • Lost in Space
  • Ring (1998)
  • Stargate
  • MUSIC:
  • Depeche Mode
  • Ethel Cain
  • Megan Thee Stallion
  • Man Man
  • Madder Mortem
  • Red Hot Chili Peppers
  • not a comprehensive list, I tend to keep most of my listening private.
  • I ALSO LOVE:
  • the colour green!!
  • my OCs
  • Gamer Supps
  • Vocaloid
  • frogs, butterflies, spiders
  • coffee, espresso martinis
  • faeries
  • knives collecting
  • science, biology, chemistry, botany
  • fashion: faecore, grunge, dark coquette, office siren, corp goth

Here's a silly kin list. I do not take this very seriously, it's fine if you do, though I am sensitive to the characters I care about and don't really want to hear them being degraded, reasonably. Idc about "doubles." Don't look at me I'm insane.
  • Ada Wong | RE
  • Castorice | HSR
  • Hilda | Dislyte
  • Klaasje Amandou | DE
  • Lyta Alexander | B5
  • Serval Landau | HSR
  • Adriana Imai | DbD
  • Maria | SH
  • Tryks | DbD
  • Talia Winters | B5
  • Feng Min | DbD
  • Half-light | DE
  • Jiang Man | Dislyte
  • June Harris | LinS
  • Londo Mollari | B5
  • Salvatore Moreau | RE
  • Sasha Nein | Psn
  • Tiffany Robinson | FAITH
...

I don't really know how to describe the following category. It isn't easily defined. It's not kinning or tulpa. It's definitely mental illness. The closest term I could use is "IDs" or "literally me" but I don't like that either tbh. It's extremely complex to me but I cba to explain to anybody.

It doesn't matter if you understand or not, but it should be really obvious that I have a special connection to these highest few. I may refer to us interchangeably. I don't want you to respond or treat me any specific way because of this - honestly, just ignore it - I only ask that you withhold judgement. Thanks.

Talbot Grimes
The Spy
The Herta
White Lily C.
Eternal Sugar C.

  • I don't want to be friends with or DM minors. It's okay to interact but I have no interest in befriending people under 18.
  • I have autism, I am horrible with tones including my own. I'm probably not bothered even if I sound it.
  • I'm also inept. If I do something that upsets you, it's so rarely malicious, and I almost certainly am not aware that I did something wrong unless you tell me. I'm not a mind reader; I require healthy communication and confrontation, otherwise, we are incompatible as friends.
  • I despise vague posting, i.e, referring to me passive aggressively in your Discord status or posts. I will not tolerate petty shit-talking, in front of or behind my back.
  • I have thought disorders that affect both my texting & speech. My grammar and spelling is very inconsistent.
  • I may exhibit a disorganised attachment style. I may exhibit a whole lot of disorderly things tbh.


My Favourite Albums (only in colour order, not least-most fav)


I do not condone the beliefs or actions of every artist I listen to, including those which I consider my favourites. I do not stan artists or develop parasocial relationships with them. I do not financially or fanatically support any artist period.

I want to make it extremely explicitly clear that I do not support Kanye in any way shape or form. I do not listen to his music anymore - especially the fuck NOT his most recent bullshit. I have never monetarily supported his work and never intend to. His older music resonates with me deeply and I have trauma-based bonds with that music. He has always been a bad person and I don't agree with any of his ideologies whatsoever. One would be remiss to ignore the impact he had on the music industry and the talent he expressed in these older albums. Please don't conflate my bond with The Life of Pablo for a direct statement of support for Kanye. He fucking sucks and I hope he dies.

I also don't support Ethel Cain for her fetishisation of incestual abuse. If any of these other artists have committed wrongdoings, I obviously don't agree with them.

Every single person on earth is "problematic" sometimes and it gets exhausting to make formal denouncements like this every time someone gets "exposed." Judge me on the merit of my own actions, not that of the random music I listen to sometimes. I pirate all streaming services (which don't pay artists well anyway), have never been to a concert, and almost never buy merch - I only have a 100 gecs t-shirt, and if they get called out too then fuck me man idk.